I'm growing

What I recognize about my great friend R. T. Barnhart is that he is keen on anticipating other's needs. He always makes himslef available to help - moving comes up a lot and Ellie was particularly cognizant of his aid on multiple occasions in the last few weeks - but also emotionally and spiritually. I notice too, that as much as giving up freedoms to move back home after living not just away at school but really on my own with a job, that I am very much a different person when I am back home - thinking about others first is no longer a consertated effort I must make but comes second nature as my motive to be truly helpful overcomes childish desires for attention and selfishness.

I have to look at where I am going to move come January, because it is becoming very clear to me that I cannot stay here longer - not taking up space in my parents condo and not in this part of the world where there is so little to offer in the line of peers, spirtuallity and personal growth. That is one of the greatest things I got out of New York, was who I was becoming. My weaknesses and strengths came into heavy relief and allowed me the opportunity to grow in ways I couldn't have otherwise. What I feel also as strongly that I received are the friends that I made and the people with whom I was blessed to create a bond.